Friday, September 26, 2008

Oh me oh my....,

I am not posting as often as I would like - WHY? I think largely because I am experiencing that 'pregnant stupidness' I have heard other women talk about. I do not feel very inspired or smart or able to easily convey what I am thinking...

I am tired. I am tired of a lot of things.

I am tired of the back support I am wearing - even though it really does make a difference.
I am tired of it chaffing my sides and wearing on moles that happen to be exactly where the support chaffs.
I am tired of not having hot water.
I am tired of worrying every time it rains that the basement will flood especially when we just paid a contractor to come in a light the pilot lights - only to learn he could only get the furnace lit - which is not yet needed... But the hot water tank - needs first aid from a plumber and will not light.

I am tired of worrying.

Worrying about children and their lack of progress in certain areas and wondering how to help them do better and meet their goals.
Worrying about the tree from which HUGE limbs broke off without an apparent reason and is hanging over my bedroom ceiling... and could lose those limbs at anytime....
Worrying about money and how quickly our retirement fund is disappearing as Hugo studies and works towards his Certification in hopes htat this will help get back into the job market.
Worrying that maybe the certification won't make a difference at all
Worrying I was gaining too much weight because I was stressed and eating lots of chocolate.
Worrying because in reality I only gained .5 lbs last month (because I ate less junk food and more healthy food) that maybe that meant that the baby is not growing as she should.
Worrying about the electricity in this house and how the fuses blow often and sometimes without an apparent reason.
Worrying that I worry too much.

Do you see a pattern here?

I think I need a cup of tea and a little less worry. What do you think?

I need to either learn how to use the feature of read more - again. Or, take the time to find the code and remove it. In the meantime please ignore

1 comment:

Beth said...

Ah Christi - I will pray for peace of mind for you.